Hey hey hey!
I’m long overdue to pop in here and I’ve started multiple posts on many occasions and just never finalized them. I’ve been trying to get Emerson’s six-month update for like a month and at this point I think we’re going to skip right to the seven-month update. Being a mom of two is much busier. It’s also incredibly wonderful and packed with so much love, but free time doesn’t exist. It’s either blog or keep the house in order. Blog or spend twenty minutes relaxing at the end of the workday before crashing into bed. So, blogging has gone on that back burner, but I’m still here! In fact, I’m here with more of a voice than I’ve ever had (especially over on Facebook). Life got really interesting at the end of October, so let me start there…
In October, I got sick with an ear infection and sinus infection. I had just gone back to work and my kids started daycare. Daycare germs are no joke and we all got sick. I thought I was in the clear though by the end of the month…until Halloween hit. I was at work and a really horrible odd sensation passed over me. Like I completely lost my sense of self, I felt dizzy, I felt out of it, and I felt really scared. It kind of passed and I went right to the doctor. The doctor told me it probably was just from my recent ear infection and fluid in my ear and it would get better. I could try an antihistamine, but I was reluctant because I was breastfeeding and didn’t want to be taking any medication.
I went back to work and thought I was in the clear until it passed over me again and I knew I had to get home. Once home, my world just continued to feel more…off. Like I could see, but things were off kilter and I didn’t feel like I was walking normal. I was upset because I didn’t want to miss trick-or-treating with Sage and I was determined to join. I made it through trick-or-treating and the distraction was actually really nice, but I still didn’t feel right. I hoped that a good night of sleep would help. No such luck.
I woke up the next morning and I couldn’t walk. My world was completely upside down and I was nauseous. This was full blown severe vertigo and it was the scariest sh** I had ever experienced. That week is a blur. My parents stayed with me during the day because I could just barely function while my husband took care of our boys. Caring for a two-year-old and three-month old baby is a lot to handle. When it was time for Emerson to eat, my husband would put him in my arms and I’d nurse him and then he’d take him away. I share this detail only to try to depict how bad it was then because I swear I’m going somewhere good with all of this.
My dad was taking me to daily doctor appointments to try to get help. Doctors didn’t know what was wrong because I looked like the picture of health and my ear looked fine now. To make a long story short, I had (and still have) labyrinthitis which in my case resulted from an infection in the inner ear. This inflammation messes with transmission of sensory information from the ear to the brain causing vertigo, dizziness and balance issues. It also can result in hearing loss, but I haven’t experienced that. The acute phase is hell. It comes on very suddenly and it is very frightening. The chronic phase lasts months…or longer. There are many more details to this story, but that sums up the major points.
I am not the type to complain about the small stuff. I’m generally a very optimistic person and I genuinely am so grateful for all the wonderful people and aspects of my life. This experience has rocked me to my core. I’ve felt anxiety like I’ve never experienced. I’ve felt frustration, sadness, moments of depression, and anger. Labyrinthitis is a sort of a freak thing and sometimes I get really pissed off that it happened to me. Then, in the same moment, I think how lucky I am that I have the power to work to get better.
What have I been doing for the last three months to get better? EVERYTHING IN MY POWER. I have learned so much about being strong. I have learned that you 100% have to be your own advocate. I have distrusted doctors and found hope through the help of holistic medicine. I have been going to a chiropractor, and most significantly, I have gotten help.
In November, my blogger friend introduced me to doTERRA essential oils. I was desperate, but also I was hopeful. I was sold because I heard they could help with vertigo and ear infections. Sign me up! I purchased an oils kit and the day the beauties arrived I was filled with so much hope. It took me time to experiment with what really helped me. All the oils have wonderful supportive qualities, but I had a specific condition I was trying to treat. I read about Oregano and how it supports a healthy immune system and it is a very powerful cleaning and purifying agent. Basically it fights the bad stuff in your body and I knew I had something bad going on. I knew this because I felt off. Even if a doctor told me I looked fine and checked out just normal, I knew I was not fine. I started rubbing a drop (diluted with fractionated coconut oil) on my feet daily. That next week, I had an appointment with a holistic doctor. Ironically, I was feeling better when I showed up to the appointment. The holistic doctor did lots of testing and discovered I had a fungus from the ear infection that was really messing me up. He also discovered that Oregano essential oil could be just the thing I needed to start to heal.
The universe is funny. So, I discovered the power of Oregano on my own, but then he confirmed it. I’ve since upgraded my regimen and I take supplements internally while still rubbing oils on my feet daily. I’ve learned how to use essential oils to aid in my healing process in many ways (dealing with headaches, stress, anxiety, fatigue). I’ve also learned how to use oils to help my family when they have been sick. My boys had bronchitis and my husband had an ear infection recently and oils helped them. Oils have and continue to help us all. It’s empowering!
I’m also still going to PT and basically at this point I have to work to get better. I have to do eye exercises where I feel ridiculous and sometimes I still question whether I’m standing normal. I’m so much better and on good days I feel like I’m back to the old “me”.
Essential oils have changed my life. I’ve learned how to use essential oils to aid in my healing process in many ways (dealing with headaches, stress, anxiety, fatigue). This post is getting long, but I felt like we really needed to catch up. I’m still working on me daily, but with the support of oils I feel like I have control. Vertigo took it all away from me and I’m just starting to get it back.
Man, this post got serious. Let me end on a happy note. These little boys are the light of my life and one doctor said to me, “You’re so lucky that you’re a mom because those boys forced you to get out of bed and move around when you probably wouldn’t otherwise”. All I could think was “You’re damn right, I’m the luckiest mom in the world and I will do everything in my power to get better for them”.
Talk to you soon!